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Monday, December 05, 2005
Happy but sad at the same time.. Is it realli a holiday??
Time flies, its now Dec already.. I have yet to start my URECA.. oh gosh.. I'm in trouble.. Seems like I realli join too much CCAs this time.. Having a hard time to cope with it.. Exams over and I should be happy and enjoying life but I'm not.. I m feeling down lately although Saturday was one of the most happy day in my life in 2005. I went out with XX. It was fun. We went to watch Chicken Little, then we walk around in Orchard. After which we dine at Marche and then head for Boat Quay to stroll around and enjoy the breeze and scenery. I wanted to take a photo with her but I didnt had the courage to ask. Stupid me!!! We left at about 1030pm and I decided to send her home. She refused as she claimed that it was not convenient for me but I felt that its alrite and its late le, so I insisted to send her home, which I did in the end. I walked her all the way to her void deck n then wave her good bye. It was rather sad but I realli had a very good time. It was one of the best moment in my life..
Oh ya, I forgot to mention I pass my driving. Besides the day with XX and passing driving, the rest is rather sad for me la.. But nonetheless I was absolutely delighted to have got my license. I remember I sms many of my friends to let them know of this good news.. It was my first time and I only got 10pts so it was realli a great achievement for myself... But then again, I dont have a car to drive. But its ok la, I will just keep it aside first. I m sure it will come in handy someday. Lifes quite boring for me this holiday actualli. I have cheerleading training from 9-12midnite every Mon, Tues and Thurs. I also have WSC Song Signing Practise on every Mon, Wed, Fri and sometimes even Sat, and each session last about 3hrs!!! Oh gosh.. My time is practically all BURNED!! Besides these two, I have IHG training for I.chess & C.chess.. realli feel like giving something out but I keep telling myself I can do it.. Not forgeting I still have that most important URECA to do!!! If not I wont have enough $$ for Australia.. I should be leaving at around Feb2006.. Will realli miss all my friends especialli ppl in NTU and XX.. Hmm thats all for today. I actualli still have a lot to say but guess I continue another day bah..
Posted at 01:43 am by wenjie77
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Saturday, November 05, 2005
Exams Coming.. Big Problem.. I'm dead..
Oh gosh. exams r nearing.. 3days left.. n the first paper is the one i HATE most.. AA202.. sucks.. i m realli afraid i gonna do super badly for it.. is it going to be my first C in NTU? I certainly hope not.. But i m seriously very scared.. cant help it.. its so chim! the onli thing that i feel tat i can do well is AA305 n AA201... so i hope i can get A for these 2, as for the rest, a B would be great... jus hope my wish will come true...
Recently, been thinking a lot abt relationships...Why do we need relationships man.. Why is it that when we r single, we hope to have a partner n yet while we have one, we want to be single or even change a new one??? WHY? WHY? WHY? Can anyone tell me??? Sigh.. Why do we have to go thru all these??? WHY!!!!!! This is driving me crazy... What is love? How do I know if I do love that gal?? How do I know whom I love more?????? This is so painful, so hurting, its affecting my exams preparations so much... Haiz.. I m realli lost.. I seriously dunno wat to do.. Been thinking of coming up with a new blog that no one else can read.. So I can write whatever I want.. I also dunno who is reading what I m typing now... Most of my friends do not know abt my problems but I also don dare to tell them.. Worrying they might change their opinion of me.. Why do I care so much abt what other ppl think of me? That I seriously don know.. I have two wishes now.. To survive thru this exam without getting C and to solve my BIG problem fast.. I have been delaying and avoiding it for so long.. don dare to face it but I guess sooner or later I still have to make a choice.. THE BIGGEST CHOICE IN MY LIFE..I would say.. but i don have the courage or should i say the idea to make the choice.. I m certainly a very bad decision maker.. I sucked at it.. I m so useless.. Sigh... To be frank, I hope no one is reading this.. Cos this is my real heart..what I m realli going thru n feeling.. which nobody knows..
Hope tmr will be better..
Posted at 12:19 am by wenjie77
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Friday, October 28, 2005
Eh, Do I still remember how to blog?? Think I Do
Haha. I almost forgot how to blog. Hmmm sorry that I havent been blogging for so long!! Hmm.. I also dunno what to say man.. This semester is rather tough or should i say very tough. Had some problems with my group members while doing project but I m glad that its all over. Join too many CCAs I guess.. Didnt know its so hard to cope with Double specs and CCAs.. I have basically joined WSC, Hall cheerleading, recreation and welfare sub-comm, FOC & Bazaar Main comm!! Phew, guess thats too much for me.. But its ok, I can endure.. most impt is I enjoy doing it.. Met a lot of new friends..Very happy.. Let me try to name them... Maybe I should rank them? Haha... Nothing better to do hor.. Let's see.. Haoting.. Cailing.. Tanny.. Felicia.. Wayne.. Angelia Tan.. Paklun.. Stephanie.. Wenting.. Jinjie.. Angelia Zhang.. Lorna.. Fane.. Ching.. Changru.. Arghh too many.. Haha.. Academic wise, didnt perform as well as last sem.. But its ok la, grades r not everything.. Very concern abt passing my driving in Dec.. Realli hope I can.. Excited abt my Exchange Prog trip to Perth but rather sad to leave Hall13.. Gonna miss all my great friends.. I must say I'm very impressed with the way Cailing does her stuffs although she seem to overdo it at times.. But credit to her, she is the best n most hardworking JCRC member I ever seen.. *Clap Clap* Cheerleading wasnt as easy as I thought.. Need a lot of training.. And I simply suck man cos I m too weak.. Will push myself to train after exams.. Argh exams.. My aim this sem is different..Last sem was aiming for 4As.. but this time round.. As long as minimum Bs I m happy.. Been skipping too many classes.. Hate myself... Vow not to do it again.. But its easier said than done.. What happen to me?? I don realli know.. Will "FANG XING" after exams.. Now just trying to get back momentum to study and endure thru this torrid one month.. Realli hope I can survive. I realli hate to get Cs.. So pls don give me any Cs.. if not I wont be able to sleep for weeks!!! Well I think I gotta go le.. morning liao and I havent sleep.. Hope I have time to blog again after this.. Well I must say its good to blog again..
Posted at 07:34 am by wenjie77
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Sunday, June 05, 2005
This past week have been torture for me. I m so mentally stress out! First was my GE project n exam coming, then come driving then the ultimate news that my dad requires a surgery. After reviewing from doctor, he was being told that one of his spinal cord joint was dislocated and must go for surgery asap. So my dad book the surgery date on 22July. There is 10% risk in it. I just cant imagine what would happen if it were to fail. The only thing in my mind was that, the surgery is confirm to be successful. I keep telling myself that. I have faith in god that he would bless my dad. After surgery, he has to be hospitalised for at least a week for observations. Now i m helping him to see if there is any possibilities to claim any insurance for the operation and hospitalisation fees. Total cost is ard $8000 man!! Sigh... money is not a problem, i jus wish he is healthy. Ya hopefully everything will go well. As NTU sem starts on 25july, i would have to go down to company him everyday after lesson in the 1st week.
The KuKoh trip that i was talking abt has been changed. Mi serene n chunxin has decided to go Genting instead. Total travel cost plus accomodation is ard $100. Plus some shopping, entertainment and food exps should make up $200 for the whole trip bah..Ya jus hope to have a good time n forget abt all my troubles. If nothing goes wrong, we sld be leaving on 14June. It would be 3day2night trip!! Hmm now i jus have to buck myself up to study for GE. No mood man! I jus read a little only. Heard his paper is always the same so i went to check out the past papers n it was really very similar. So i jus revise those similar questions.. Hope it helps la. I jus hope to get at least a C. Tats all. Anyway GE doesnt matter a lot to me. Sigh been down lately man.. Hope i can have some good news in the weeks to come. I had enuff of bad news!! Arghh
Posted at 06:20 pm by wenjie77
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I have been offered Second Specialisation
Below is an email that i have received from NBS: I wonder if i should take up the second specialisation. After browsing thru the options, my only take was banking finance. The rest does not interest mi at all. So i went to read up more about it. It mentions i need to complete an extra 20AUs, meaning i must take an additional 5core modules than the rest of the students. Thats quite tough man..and those 5 modules are counted towards my honours too!! oh gosh..wat a hard decision to make..But after 2days of consideration, i decided to opt for it. But if i do not get Banking n Finance but got either of the other four, i would reject the offer. But if i do get what i want, guess i jus have to play less, and study more!! Serene is also offer this!! Of coz rite, she got 8As out of 8. But surprisingly, she has yet to make up her mind..
Double Specialisation Programme Congratulations on your outstanding performance in the first year of study. In recognition of your excellent academic performance, we are pleased to invite you to apply for the Double Specialisation Programme. The Programme is designed to equip students with in-depth knowledge and skills in two specialisations. A dual set of skills would increase the attractiveness of our graduates to employers, especially those who are looking for talents with multiple-disciplinary skills.
You can choose your second specialisations from the following areas:
Posted at 06:07 pm by wenjie77
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Saturday, May 28, 2005
I love driving!! Great Results..
Finally results are out..i did better than i did at NUS. This sem i got 3As and 1Bs..if ur remember, i told ur the acc2 was the hardest paper i attempted in my whole life. tat xplains my B..heard a few ppl FAIL that module man..and a lot of ppl got C..i realli dun understand y the prof must set such a crazy paper...i hate them..well but serene, the smart student manage to get A. Guess she is jus in a different class than all of us..she now has 8As out of 8 from the two semester. Real amazing gal...confirm first class honours man..Hmm i have confirm that i will be gg with Serene and Chunxin for the Kukop trip.. it will be somewhere in June but exact dates not confirm yet.. I have also planned next sem time table le..but i dunno when is the date for bidding and registering as last sem, the admin office did everything for me when i transfer over to NTU..so any kind soul there pls help me K..thanks ah...saw the modules i will be taking next sem le..w/o GE its a total of 20hrs..tats a lot and the modules r quite tough...Real worried but nonetheless i will strive my hardest to excel...i vow to try harder that last sem. Tmr have to meet for project at Millenia Walk.. the GE presentation is on wed lo..getting nearer..i have done my part in the report le...now we need to compile and try out the sketch tat we plan...wahaha hope its fun..the GE exam is coming too..on 8june..sianz...exams again..but nvm la, jus a GE..jus do wat i can lo.. As long as can pass can le..think i gonna get C for all my GE..but heck care la..as long as my core get As, who cares abt GE...lol...I m also applying for GIP together with Jillian..i really hope tat i can go with her...Don anyhow think ah..reason is because i realli want to try out the experience and jillian being my best friend in NTU, is the best companion i would have..so i wld be extremely happy if both of our application is successful...
Well besides studies, i have also started driving..yesterday was my first practical session. Was real fun n exciting..the instructor was very friendly too..he is veri young, ard 30 i guess..chatted throughout the whole session man...cant wait for my next lesson on monday now..but my engine did die of a few times..lol which i tink its normal la...who didnt had there b4 when they learn rite??? Anyway today aint a veri gd day for me..I sld be happy with learning driving n excellent results but i aint happy...had some personal problems...actualli i feel empty, lonely n sad...sigh..hope tmr will be a better day...feel better when i meet up wif my friends...i have to say i really m fortunate to have so many good friends with me..Thank god....I will treasure all of u..I will..Lastly i like to congrats Yasin, my poly classmates, n one of my best ever pal in my 3yrs in SP for getting married in 26June...really happy for him..hope he had realli found his happiness man...as for me? nah still long way to go...realli miss the times in poly man...how i wish time can go bacK...those were the days..miss you all guys..hope to meet u soon some day...take care!!!
Posted at 05:11 pm by wenjie77
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Thursday, May 19, 2005
Project again?? Oh gosh...
I m getting sick of doing project..especially during holidays..but i have no choice..currently taking intersem GE..thankfully i find it really interesting, beneficial n fun to attend..but bad thing is its at night from 1830-2130 from mon-wed...n have to do project..Our topic is on the pros n cons of being a single parent..i m in charge of finding data on single mum..our grp size is 7..but there r 5gals inside...the grp is rather a quiet one to my disappointment..The course is known as CREATIVE RELATIONS FOR LIFE...i will recommend ppl to take it as i really like it alot..got to learn a lot of things that i didnt knew b4..my lecturer mention our next week lesson topic is abt SEX!! wow everyone went bonkers when they heard tat..wahaha we were told to prepare questions that we want to know regarding sex man!! thats our homework for this work...funny right??? I m quite worried abt the project actually..exam is on 8june and today is already 19may..project deadline is 1june...realli not much time left..n my grp all don seem to wan to do the project man...wat sld i do??? i guess i have to push them to work...i can understand now everyone is slacking n nobody has the mood to do project but we realli don have a choice..i will push myself on n do my part...btw i didnt even know next monday is holiday..guess everyday just looks the same to me man..oh yah i met two very nice friends from the GE..they were from Accountancy too..they are Serene and Chunxin.. We realli hit it off at the start and i m looking fwd to forging a strong friendship with them..every wed we will go down to AMK for supper w/o fail.. cos they both stay in AMK..yesterday we had supper till so late till i miss my last bus and have to take a cab home man...we chatted alot n we are planning a trip to KuKuop in JB to eat seafood and spend a night there..hmm i also have a lot of friends to meet man...especially primary school friends gathering..realli looking fwd to tat as i had not met most of them for at least 10yrs man..can u imagine tat..wahaha it will be fun to see them again..cant imagine how they look like now..alrite tats all from me..
Posted at 10:03 pm by wenjie77
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Sunday, May 15, 2005
Woohoo!! I m finally blogging again man..Its been such a long time since i last blog..Was stressed up during exams. I would have to say that this semester i wasnt really well prepared man..but i still managed to scrap thru everything...results would be out on 27thmay, which is 2weeks away. I m really excited to know how well i fare man..overall the exams r still ok. Except for Acc2, which was real tough. I would say its the tougest exam that i have ever taken. really scare the hell out of me when i saw the paper..but to be honest, i m aiming for all 4As for my core modules. Sounds ambitious rite.. well its better to aim high then to aim low..thats my philosophy. Hmm straight after exams i left for thailand. It was really fun there man. But there were a few things that i didnt like. First its the pollution. Its real bad man. Especially when u travel by tuk tuk, u will get to breathe in all the black smoke...real bad...second its the hot weather..it can go as high as 40degrees.. real bad n there is totally no rain as its summer now..so do not wear jeans there..wahaha..lastly its the cheaters that r present there...but i cant blame them also..as they r real poor...but tat still dont give them the right to cheat...i was cheated a few times there man...now i learn all their tricks n i vowed not to get cheated there again.. lol i paid for the experiences man..i flew there thru Jetstar asia..n i mus really comment that it was not very comfortable on board n the services were not very good either..I would recommend Tiger Airways to your if u r choosing a budget airline. They provide much better services and their seats r real comfortable...At bangkok, i have visited the famous Chatuchak market..its real big man...u need at least 1 full day to patronise all the stalls..heard theres over 8000 stalls there..its like a super super BIG PASAR MALAM that it seems like its not possible to finish patronizing..lol..Other places that i have been to are SAFARI WORLD, DREAM WORLD, a few TEMPLES, shopping areas like MBK, WTC and SIAM SQUARE...i also been to tallest hotel in bangkok..its 84storey high and have a revolving cafe at the highest lvl..reminds me of the old westin stamford n compass rose...yawn..somehow i m tired..perhaps not use to blogging since i haven blog for so long..i somehow lost the urge to blog..wahaha also dunno y...perhaps i m lazy bah..well i think i stop here first..will continue again..
Posted at 12:28 am by wenjie77
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Wednesday, April 06, 2005
I am in BIG BIG Trouble...
This week is real bad for me...i really cant study well...and i have gotten myself into a BIG BIG BIG, SUPER BIG trouble...Oh no....i m dead this time..No one can save me!!! Feel super low...haven been feeling like this since dunno how long le....Why must it happen to me...Haiz...I gotta bring myself up and fight....if not i will sure die...I jus hate myself....
Posted at 04:46 am by wenjie77
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Monday, April 04, 2005
I'm really very confused..Who can help me?
Haiz, i dunno y i feel so confused till i feel like typing something here now jus to make myself feel better....today hasnt been gd for me...was sick the moment i woke up, but still force myself to come back to hall but i chose to rest rather than attend the last econs tutorial..although i knew the tutorial was very impt, i thought tat my health was even more impt...ya so i took a 3hr nap..then i wasnt feeling hungry so i skip my lunch..after the nap, my head was still quite pain so i took panadol again...total took 4 today..now i feel better, especially after i had my dinner...was eating with Terence, when Rongz msg me to buy Ban Mian for her....she mentioned she was sick too...so coincidence..ya but then i didnt bring enuff cash with me and i was eating at canteen 13 while the Ban Mian was at Canteen 14, so i went all the way back to my room to take some money n headed to Canteen 14 to buy....queue was quite long though, then i was worried Rong might be hungry, ya so i try to walk faster the moment i got the food...hmm while waiting, i remember that Rong dislike the fried onion so i told the auntie not to put it...ya then i made my way to her room asap n pass it to her...then i notice she had a new hair cut, the one she had wanted all along..ya it was very nice..ya then i left for my room and begin to mug again...oh yah then i started to watch Naruto 126 n 127..was feeling rather emotional after the show...cos Naruto n his comrades were sacrificing their lives for Sasuke but he didnt appreciate at all...feel so sad for all of them....Ya then after tat show, i feel very confused..i suddenly jus dunno wat to do...haiz..hate tat kind of feeling man...wonder when i can get over it..really need to focus on exams..cannot afford to be affected by other stuffs now...i....i dunno wat to write la..haiz jus feel very down n sianz n dun really know wat to do next...who can tell me wat to do??? wats wrong with me man?? arghhh i m going crazy soon i think...i don wish to be a villain but i really cant control my feelings..it seems like no one can help me except myself but then again, i don even know how to help myself..oh gosh...this is real serious....
Posted at 10:05 pm by wenjie77
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